Category Archives: age

Learning to drive at 22?

22, who would have thought
The age where drinking Is no biggie And becoming a professional is One of those next things on the list

16 – most people are eager to start driving
But sometimes reckless
I was not that “fortunate” to yearn for that thing called a license

Single mom family
I learned humility and modesty
Didn’t expect much
But was grateful for all

Now 22
In the USA
F1 status
Trying to get a license is a pain

Is it not my time?
Is this all a sign?
Should I not drive?
Or should I be driven 🙂

The “struggle” is real
My struggle of getting a license

So
Stepping back
And let life run it’s course

For now…

I would say
Don’t wait
Not for 22 at least

My view as I write
Being driven it is 🙂

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A different from lately

So this is a very HAPPY POST with a few darks spots at the end… 

So this weekend I hung out with some girlfriends. We ran/walk/hopped/twerked across the finish line, the best part is that we finished. Now before AAAAAALLLLLLL of that and I get to the end I must indulge on how we got there.

Once upon a time… lol NOPE…

It was in the middle of the semester and I have been trying to get a group of my friend to do one of those fun/awesome/charity runs. I mean why do it if its not for a good cause. Yea exercise! but ya get me?!?!…

So as I was headed to my Mechanics of Material class with my horrible professor I was greeted on the 4th floor by a HEEEEEYYY *insert name* !!!!! I was so happy my morning had some cheering up to it! 🙂 I told them about the run and they were like YES! lets do this! On the spot we signed up as a team the “French Kiss” (lets just say I have been trying to get someone to use that name, another cub I am apart of was suppose to have a fundraiser and use it but thtat never got off the ground ANYWAYYYYY) But whatever our name was our, team was awesome! ….

SKIPS the rest, to the night before… 😀

So the night before it was a girls sleep over and it has been soo long that I actually had a “sleepover” it was pretty interesting and much more ‘mature’ than the typical sleepover and plus my friend is married(she is the only married one, the rest status:single lol).

My day started a bit gloomy but once we all got to my gf’s house it was LIVE. Our idea of a good night sleep before a 5K was to go to a hookah bar and drink a lil and chill. I was twerking allover the place! #twerkteam I went to bed twerking and woke them up twerking,

One thing I am known for is my punctuality (depening on the importnce of it [: ) So these buggers decided to sleep under the covers for a minute more in which I indulged in more twerking on them. Them when it was time I was tooting my horn and we were off, headed to  the race to meet up with other team members and get all colored up #colormerad and stay fit! YAY 

We waited for our friends, most of them showed up the other to where LATE but still we finished they race and were re-united at the end of the race. The was was awesome the people, the vibe, the atmosphere was just beaming with all different faces, all different ages. It was really cute to see the little kids running with their families and just having a great time! We were suppose to twerk across the finish line but we did it for like a short second. #FAIL we got throught the race alive #YES #THANKGOD! then we partied a little, got some free give aways and then headed to dc, we were starving. BOMBED #chipotle and we ate so much we were stuffed no one could talk from there the group dispered slowly. 

The few that hung around decided to “chill” but instead it was more like forced chilling because we were tired and we had a food coma, #tryingtobecool, we grabbed a few beers and called it a day.

I was so colored up and I had a temporary tatt on my face, imagine taking the bus with that on your face LOL smh but I made it home, stepped righ in the shower and affter that I was KO(knocked out), thinking I was going to just take a NAP, I ended up waking up in the morning for work. 

Now from now on these are observations I made about my friends that annoyed me a little and I JUST took notice of. I may be a bit judgemental but I think we all are a little. I am not picky and I DO NOT get pissed off easily or annoyed but this really picked at me. 

1. one of my friends kept making childish comments; everytime someone had on somethign cool there would be a following remark “we shoul dget that”, “we are not cool enough”, “man we are lame”, “why didn;t we think of that”, “lets get that”, “I am goign to guy that” (keep in mind this is a sunday, therfore most business are closed.

2. I had this one friend whp also tried to be number one. Nw here is my thing, I believe in competition but this was all fun in my head, sorry didnt get the memo. We were all friends there. Why was there sucha  big deal about it. 

There are more but I would like to just leaev this post a happy one. 

LEARNT:

1. Some things you can ony take in doses.

2. Stop looking on the ones around you, enjoy you first AT ALL TIMES

3. Make sure the whole group knows the meaning of team.

4. Make sure all teh friends know each other. 

5. No matter how old, you can do whatever.

6. It encouraged me to run more. 

7. Kids are adorable!

8. There are good kids!

9. Why give up now, keep on living!

10. A happy you makes a even happier environment !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

It was awesome. I would do it any other time.

Image<——— MY FAV COLOR! 😉 

Hung up

As time passes by.
He won’t pass with them.
He lingers in my thoughts and no matter how much I say it’s not as much anymore.
The fact remains I still like him a little.

I guess in my mind I have this itsy bitsy sprinkle of hope that the heavens will open and the earth will reform and we shall be in the same state, same city and maybe one day in each others arm.

He is perfect in my eyes and maybe that’s my flaw and his. Oh what a contradiction, being too perfect is the flaw HA!

I think he can do better than me but then again I don’t wish to put myself under the bus. Ludicrous right? But maybe being “real” is how I need to think.

And then what if I invest so much time on him, when to him I am just a mere thought, if any at all.

This crush is too huge just like the distance between us. He makes me smile and so do I him, well I think and hope.

How do Iget pass this crush?
All is welcomed…
It’s somewhat of a habit I’d like to break

Contagion-Smiles

The simplest thing in life are ‘free’, but it can cause a happy bubble to pop and you smile from deep inside out.

Seeing newborns and the elders smile means life is meaningful.
Makes me feel like there is hope.

This came to mind because as I was waiting for my bus this morning, in the cold. I was a feeling uncertain of what to expect during my day and because of that I was becoming very anxious. And I must say anxiety is not something cool, it can consume you and you become numb with that overwhelming feeling. But as my bus was approaching me there was an elderly guy, looking pretty fit for his age riding his bicycle with NO hands, just smiling as the wind brushed over his obviously fully grown facial hair.

That sight gave me a feeling that life has its potholes, but we can either wallow in them, keeping moving past them and/or fill them if we can.

Enjoy the small moments in life, you never know what the next second can bring.

I am happy and blessed that I have such loving people in our life.

I wish everyone, worldwide a burst of happiness today and everyday.

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Anonymous complaints

I am struggling with my classes but everything else in my life is pretty okay but I have surrounded myself with school and it eats me up inside. I don’t know what to do anymore. I cant continue like this.

I need some advise but I’m scared of being judged.

They say sticks and stones may break my bones but words can never hurt you.

LIES and I’m serious, and I use as an example when my bf and I broke up. the first thing that ached me was the words that was delivered because I knew we were headed down that road it was the words that finalized it. THE WORDS.

I am young and I know that there is much more to live, learn and explore in this life so I’m not too stressed but I feel the “system” of our life of society has rendered our minds to think that without it one is nothing and I’m sick and tired of trying to live up to that standard but what do I keep doing. Try to live up to it.

I’m a contradiction and it sucks but I would like to call it conscious brainwashing. A paradox that’s what it is.

Independent me

There is so much to admire from the outside, from the outside, from another persons view. Wanting and gaining that independence we all seek. It kinda blinds me from taking advantage of opportunities right in front of me.

A reward it is, but too much it? Iono. It good that I know that I want to be on my own that I want to be out of this meat that I am not scared totally of the world outside. It good because I will survive it anything does happen. I will be okay if the world ends. I will be just fine. It means if all hell fails, I can become that total independent me. It’s just waiting for the right moment.

A flaw. That it is also because I don’t reach out most of the times because I feel no need to and because I feel I can do if I actually but the time in. But am I doing those things? Lol no! So therefore I fall behind and also it’s a flaw because I don’t leave open windows to make and meet people. I’m like a shark in a fish tank full of sharks tank trying to do it all and be on top but the thing is I don’t the other sharks and I ignore the fishes that can help. Or maybe that can’t I don’t open up very much because I feel I am okay. But am I really?!

Anyhow, a reward or flaw, which wins?