This world which looks so whole
Shambled, disembodied with loop holes
Your perfect world it may seem
Inside out it feels
To them this world of theirs
dismantled and disengaged
Filled with anger, fear and all the rage
They know not why they face this race
The children of tomorrow
Can’t see their tomorrow
Ashes to ashes
Dust to dust
It falls around them
I know not if it’s the number one
but it’s a fear alright.
And it makes itself known real bright.
funny thing is, it shows itself not all hours of days but only one when it feels like.
And when it does it’s outstanding and that’s not in the good way.
This fear is causing so many thought process conflict in planning for my future.
My GPA is JUST in “good standing” and I’m happy because its going up, not down!
But I’m constantly surrounded by 4.0’s and I’m so confused in classes that I actually like.
I feel defeated but my journeys just begun.
I don’t necessarily like competition and I feel because of that I’m defeated too easily most of the time.
My fear of failing
I thought it’s when your in your teen years you feel the most emotional wreck but does it stop there?
When I was a teen I was cold and pretty heartless. I would be hurt but I got over in a quick minute. I was competitive but I was a good sport because I think having fun was such awesome time and losing was a experience to learn from and fix it.
I fear becoming complacent and leaving world to live my life.
Things have happened that I thought I would be over but at 21 I feel like it’s all coming back and now is the final time to either cleanse my mind or it will linger there forever. Where do we start where do we end?! What do we do?
I am struggling with my classes but everything else in my life is pretty okay but I have surrounded myself with school and it eats me up inside. I don’t know what to do anymore. I cant continue like this.
I need some advise but I’m scared of being judged.
They say sticks and stones may break my bones but words can never hurt you.
LIES and I’m serious, and I use as an example when my bf and I broke up. the first thing that ached me was the words that was delivered because I knew we were headed down that road it was the words that finalized it. THE WORDS.
I am young and I know that there is much more to live, learn and explore in this life so I’m not too stressed but I feel the “system” of our life of society has rendered our minds to think that without it one is nothing and I’m sick and tired of trying to live up to that standard but what do I keep doing. Try to live up to it.
I’m a contradiction and it sucks but I would like to call it conscious brainwashing. A paradox that’s what it is.