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Motivation

Intriguing and yet overwhelming, that is how I see motivation.

>One day waking up, >feeling ready to tackle the world, no matter what it may throw your way. And >another moment either the same day, it may seem as if you are thrown to the side by the daily obstacles you come across.

Motivation to each person is so different and we come across it in so many different ways!

motivation
Only you can motivate YOU!
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Starting that “New Page”

After the break up
I was relieved

Happy that I didn’t have to feel guilty for trying to show him love
Happy that I didn’t need to pretend
Happy that I didn’t need to think twice about out conversation

He wanted to have other girls and then have me at the end of the day

I’m not sorry that I’m not that type of girl
I’m glad that you found what you want

BUT the real reason for this post

Even though I am relieved
The dating game has changed in the past 3 years and I am rusty
YES I AM RUSTY

I don’t understand flirting like once upon a time
I don’t get it

So slowly I’m trying g to get the hang of it

A different from lately

So this is a very HAPPY POST with a few darks spots at the end… 

So this weekend I hung out with some girlfriends. We ran/walk/hopped/twerked across the finish line, the best part is that we finished. Now before AAAAAALLLLLLL of that and I get to the end I must indulge on how we got there.

Once upon a time… lol NOPE…

It was in the middle of the semester and I have been trying to get a group of my friend to do one of those fun/awesome/charity runs. I mean why do it if its not for a good cause. Yea exercise! but ya get me?!?!…

So as I was headed to my Mechanics of Material class with my horrible professor I was greeted on the 4th floor by a HEEEEEYYY *insert name* !!!!! I was so happy my morning had some cheering up to it! 🙂 I told them about the run and they were like YES! lets do this! On the spot we signed up as a team the “French Kiss” (lets just say I have been trying to get someone to use that name, another cub I am apart of was suppose to have a fundraiser and use it but thtat never got off the ground ANYWAYYYYY) But whatever our name was our, team was awesome! ….

SKIPS the rest, to the night before… 😀

So the night before it was a girls sleep over and it has been soo long that I actually had a “sleepover” it was pretty interesting and much more ‘mature’ than the typical sleepover and plus my friend is married(she is the only married one, the rest status:single lol).

My day started a bit gloomy but once we all got to my gf’s house it was LIVE. Our idea of a good night sleep before a 5K was to go to a hookah bar and drink a lil and chill. I was twerking allover the place! #twerkteam I went to bed twerking and woke them up twerking,

One thing I am known for is my punctuality (depening on the importnce of it [: ) So these buggers decided to sleep under the covers for a minute more in which I indulged in more twerking on them. Them when it was time I was tooting my horn and we were off, headed to  the race to meet up with other team members and get all colored up #colormerad and stay fit! YAY 

We waited for our friends, most of them showed up the other to where LATE but still we finished they race and were re-united at the end of the race. The was was awesome the people, the vibe, the atmosphere was just beaming with all different faces, all different ages. It was really cute to see the little kids running with their families and just having a great time! We were suppose to twerk across the finish line but we did it for like a short second. #FAIL we got throught the race alive #YES #THANKGOD! then we partied a little, got some free give aways and then headed to dc, we were starving. BOMBED #chipotle and we ate so much we were stuffed no one could talk from there the group dispered slowly. 

The few that hung around decided to “chill” but instead it was more like forced chilling because we were tired and we had a food coma, #tryingtobecool, we grabbed a few beers and called it a day.

I was so colored up and I had a temporary tatt on my face, imagine taking the bus with that on your face LOL smh but I made it home, stepped righ in the shower and affter that I was KO(knocked out), thinking I was going to just take a NAP, I ended up waking up in the morning for work. 

Now from now on these are observations I made about my friends that annoyed me a little and I JUST took notice of. I may be a bit judgemental but I think we all are a little. I am not picky and I DO NOT get pissed off easily or annoyed but this really picked at me. 

1. one of my friends kept making childish comments; everytime someone had on somethign cool there would be a following remark “we shoul dget that”, “we are not cool enough”, “man we are lame”, “why didn;t we think of that”, “lets get that”, “I am goign to guy that” (keep in mind this is a sunday, therfore most business are closed.

2. I had this one friend whp also tried to be number one. Nw here is my thing, I believe in competition but this was all fun in my head, sorry didnt get the memo. We were all friends there. Why was there sucha  big deal about it. 

There are more but I would like to just leaev this post a happy one. 

LEARNT:

1. Some things you can ony take in doses.

2. Stop looking on the ones around you, enjoy you first AT ALL TIMES

3. Make sure the whole group knows the meaning of team.

4. Make sure all teh friends know each other. 

5. No matter how old, you can do whatever.

6. It encouraged me to run more. 

7. Kids are adorable!

8. There are good kids!

9. Why give up now, keep on living!

10. A happy you makes a even happier environment !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

It was awesome. I would do it any other time.

Image<——— MY FAV COLOR! 😉 

My Island JAMAICA +

I am from Jamaica
And I must add
A very proud Jamaican at that

There is no country like mine but there are a few very similar.
The name I say proud as so do I wear the color and speak the dialect.

Like other lands, gigantic or small we have our flaws and the things that make out country stand out. But in a perfect world it would be a even playing field in my eyes, because I believe in complete and total equality.

But I have come to an understanding that it’s ain’t so.

The world is an uneven playing field, because there has to be conflict for progression. We have to lack something before we try to make another thing better. or create something new. And I don’t just refer to Jamaica but the world on a whole.

I want to go back and skylark in the backyards of my home town. But even on homeland there stands inequality and a lack of open minds.

My home isn’t grand like the lands of the eastern hemisphere, but rather small in area. But I feel if we work together we can get by and make it work for us. We shouldn’t have such huge differences in class for we are small in size. The superpowers of the world have their huge class gaps, some which I don’t agree with, but there are so huge that I am taken back by everything they do, just to maintain the calm.

I feel as a small nation we should work close by each other, and try to help our neighbors near or far. We shouldn’t watch as the next person is slowly slipping away, but instead reach out and lend a helping hand. I think understand class gaps and power elites and inequality overall, but with a country so small why should the gaps be such trenches, almost like sink holes that one can lose them self.

I can honestly talk from experience that once you can move up from one step or half a step higher than your previous status the feeling is great an I don’t deny that feeling, because I feel everyone should adhere some feeling of the sort.

But here comes by contradiction in a sense. It’s going to be a blabber but here goes. As I said before there is no level playing field. And as I say that I also add that happiness is relative. Let me see if I can explain that: each job, coming from the janitor who cleans the office to the receptionist who takes calls to the manager who oversee the franchise to the CEO the owner of the whole. Each role has to be filled for the company to work successfully but I am sure in each owns world there is a complaint and then there is happiness. But relatively speaking looking down or up on the next persons jobs assuming you have one of the ones I have named previously there can be no equal comparison because the job description is totally different.

I think we should all take a step back do what we do best because we love it or try to and help the others with whatever you can or may not be able to but it’s the thought that can matter sometimes. Not giving the material things so much value.

Bak to my original train of thought. Jamaica can be great but if we continue to fight for independence with just the few elites that lie in our big country and small island, we will never make progress and it will all be in vain. Repeated over and over again in words and actions. A team/country is a strong as its weakest link. Find truth in that and you can over see the obstacle and I don’t say this for others to look on that weakest link and try to be like them but rather help them so we can move ahead together in our different roles in society and unify.

Unity is strength so get up, stand up and help your brother.

Lend a helping hand. I want to go home one day and be happy and enjoy y country! I want others to find the joy an peace and happiness I find there whether visiting or to live. But Jamaicans have to look after their own and make do with what is there. And keeping moving up, united we stand and a same way we ago fall!

ONE LOVE

I want you

So there is this guy I like but we are on the total opposite of the academic spectrum. I’m in the middle of my undergrad and he is in the middle of his PhD.
Also he is really experienced and I don’t think I am
Plus he in a different country.
I really like him and I feel like there is potential for an us but I know I’m kind of scared and I think He might also be scared.
But how do you forget someone like that?
He was prolly too perfect in my eyes. And I need to see some flaws before it sucks
Off to bed I think I’m done blabbering about this guy now…

Right now I hope our friendship is strong

Cookie the alias

What is this?
This feeling, it’s so mixed
So wired in
So twirled up

Man this body of mine
Conjures up the most ridic things
Wtf

One moment I’m yearning for a cookie just a taste would prolly satisfy me
And then another moment I care no longer for a cookie because in reality I don’t have that much of a sweet tooth

And then the past is unravelled and I’m having this horrible feeling
I mean really bad

Like I want to throw my phone at something but its not worth it!

Fuck you!
And when I saw that, I saw it with the most respect!
Yes respect

Acknowledge my irony and love it!

Contradicting

This l feeling

I am alone because I know what it’s like to be loved and hugged and and kissed upon my forehead.

If only I had that back, without the love. I like being held and reassured!

I just want to be held in close proximity to body warmth!

I want to feel a pulse, pulsating through every part of their body!
Their heart matching mine

Taking turns lying on each others chest. Playing in each others hair.

Giving me horrible massages but because that person I love it!

I want to spoon with someone and kiss me goodnight!

O that physical touch that breath on my neck just saying how much they want to hold me close and smell my hair and tell me I stink but still hugs me close because no matter what they want to hug me and hold me close in their arms not knowing how long but wanting it to not end anytime soon.