A ‘To-do List’ I dug up since 2012

The List:

  • Go to Bali
  • Ride an elephant
  • Have sex in a moving mode of transportation 😀
  • Hav a pet snake, not forever
  • Cook fancy dinner for my “husband”
  • Have a boy and girl child
  • Go bungee jumping
  • Go skydiving DONE
  • Scream bomb in a plane
  • Go hiking in the rain forest
  • Go to Australia
  • Go to Germany
  • Play water polo in Hungary
  • Castrate a rapist
  • Smack the s@%& out of someone who abuses another for no plausible reason
  • Help some homeless child to get an education
  • Help an addict to realize they can do without
  • Model somewhere EH
  • Go to Hawaii
  • Surf on some gnarly waves!
  • Skateboard for real
  • Get a tattoo* I’M A SCAREDY CAT 
  • Colour my hair DONE
  • Go up in a hot air balloon
  • Learn to dance on a pole DONE
  • Own a secret bed room for sex with mirros everywhere n draws of sex toys etc 🙂
  • Give back to all those who helped in my growth as an adult CONTINUOUS PROCESS
  • Take care of my mother when I start working
  • Volunteer in another country that’s has some sufferation
  • Maybe join the peace core
  • Have my own enterprize
  • Learn to ride a motor cycle
  • Go rock climbing
  • Try handgliding
  • Start a fire from scratch
  • Be my sister’s best friend  THINK I HAVE SOMEWHAT ACCOMPLISHED THIS LOL
  • Learn to belly dance

I wish  

I wish I didn’t feel so bad about not being smart enough

I wish I could make ya’ll happy and myself happy

I wish I didn’t know anything

I wish I was completely ignorant cause its not like I know a lot anyways

I wish no one harm

I wish I could people around me

I wish I knew what to do.

I wish I knew what happiness was like when I was a kid again

I wish I didn’t have to think about the future already

I wish I was 9 again

I wish I could read minds

I wish I knew what I wanted to study

I wish I knew what I was best at

I wish I knew what to do next

I wish God would speak to me.

Am I asking too much?

All I wanted was to be loved & give love back [that’s a given]

There are things that you do when your in love, [I think] like:

U just want to show them love everyday [all day] in any possible way

U want to shower them with gifts

U want to be with them at reasonable times

U want to do things to please them

U want to talk to them at all times

U want to find out more things about them

U want to hear their voices a lot

U love small things that they do

U want to know about their well being a lot

U don’t ignore them

U apologize when u did something wrong

U respect them

U trust them

U don’t be the angry jealous boyfriend[/gf]

U talk about them all the time

U make them know that you are the joy of your life

Old but still my memory

Old but still my memory… one that makes me crack TF up HAHA (it ended but this was how I felt)

Everytime I feel more inspired and motivated in my life my mind wanders to different places and one place it has always found comfort is thinking about you, our past, our present(even with distance, we still have each other) and the multiple possibilities of the future. We make aim make it what we would like. And even though we have other things to preoccupy our life other than our relationship, the thought of you brings smiles to my face. You are my sunshine and each day I want you to know how you brighten up my life, my whole world.